October, Week 1 2007

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Monday  October 1 , 2007

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Do not be too quick to assume your enemy is a savage just because he is your enemy. Perhaps he is your enemy because he thinks you are a savage. Or perhaps he is afraid of you because he feels that you are afraid of him. And perhaps if he believed you are capable of loving him he would no longer be your enemy.

Thomas Merton, writer (1915-1968)

Treadmill (Nuclear Heart Stress Test) today... no fun but I survived.

"The Boy" didn't go to school again today, Christy had a long talk with him, he won't listen to me at all, I just piss him off... unless he needs a ride, food or money

A friend mentioned that he read my journal and it seemed typical; " Seems "normal" except for all the interest in guns and rifles... Kinda scares me a bit with all the other things you have going on."

I have always had guns, I like to shoot targets and in the desert there were occasionally things that needed to be dispatched. This whole town is 'into' guns for one reason or another, mostly hunting but there are collectors who really know their business and, of course, survivalists who always have a gun within reach, there is still of twinge of the "Old West" up here... more than a twinge in some areas...I guess I did get a little carried away with the guns though, perhaps, subconsciously, I am compensating for some undisclosed flaw or weakness, a belated midlife crisis... identity crisis... who am I kidding, I am sure I am, but it doesn't really matter. I can't afford a head doctor, buying guns and motorcycles is cheaper then Psychiatry... and more satisfying because, in the long run, I'll have guns and motorcycles to show for the money spent.

Tuesday  October 2 , 2007

We tend to overestimate the effect of a technology in the short run and underestimate the effect in the long run.

Roy Amara, engineer, futurist (b. 1925)

Finished my shelf in the shop today...

Wednesday  October 3 , 2007

They deem him their worst enemy who tells them the truth.

Plato, philosopher (427-347 BCE)

I realize that a 'revelation' to me may be childishly old hat to some of the people reading this but I want to put this down in my Journal anyway, have patience with me...

I had a thought last night just before I went to bed. I was frustrated trying to break faith and religion down to it's lowest common denominator to help me communicate my perception of it with more clarity. 

Humans, as sentient beings perceive the world through their senses, five tangible and one we can call intellect, where all the senses come together, the sixth sense. We all live in our own sphere of reality, a sphere of perception... perceived reality. Every thing we see, hear, smell, touch and taste is interpreted by our intellect, we pass through the world with these six senses and make determinations about what transpires by relating everything to our prior intellectual interpretation of what we have experienced through our senses in the past.

Well... that was my revelation.... every thought and belief we have is evaluated in terms of our own frame of reference, nothing that happens outside that awareness has any relevance. No two people can possibly look at anything, and evaluate it exactly the same way. Everyone brings a different knowledge (perceived reality) to the process.

Thursday  October 4 , 2007

Zeitgeist: The things that everybody believes, but which nobody understands.

Worked loading the boxes onto the shelf. My arms and shoulders are really sore...

This is kind of cool... http://www.imaginepeace.com/  this would be a great place to sent your prayer for peace... if you are so inclined.

Friday  October 5 , 2007

The greatest lesson in life is to know that even fools are right sometimes.
Sir Winston Churchill

Christy left at about 1330, she will be in Spokane for the next two days at the Church Conference... something about a 12 step Christian intervention Program.

The Boy went to the Falls, Calie and Trevor went to the Homecoming Game and Dance and whatever... Monica went too, that left Autumn and I to entertain each other, actually she only wanted to watch Hanna Montana. That's cool I guess, there really isn't an awful lot we find mutually entertaining.

hate

Letter to Fox News:

I just read a transcript of a conversation between Bill Hemmer, Mark Williams and David Corn. What is wrong with you people!? Mark Williams is a disgrace to humanity. Impressionable people with out the intellect to discern the difference between News and Entertainment watch your channel. The fact that you have on Side Show Geeks like him for ratings purposes goes right over their heads.
 
That he is merely a sensationalism junkie and you are allowing him to get a publicity fix at the expense of the honor and reputation of a Presidential Candidate and sitting Senator is completely lost on the general public.
 
He calls himself an "Opinion Journalist", a contradiction in terms if I ever heard one. He ranks near the bottom of the compost heap that contains Limbaugh, Savage, Coulter and O'Riley and the rest of the conscience-less maggots. People with nothing to contribute but venom, you should at least post a banner under his image identifying him as a "Shock Jock" Radio Personality.
 
This country is marching to hell and you and the rest of the Media-for-hire, Have no soul will travel, shortsighted pinheads are leading the parade, you have the ability and the pulpit to present genuine constructive discussion and you choose to pander to the lowest common denominator... you are not a person are you... you are an it, a corporation, it makes decisions based on profit. Discerning, compassionate, responsible, discourse does not enter into the decision making process at all does it... I am wasting my breath... so sad

 

Saturday  October 6 , 2007

Americanism is a question of principles, of idealism, of character: it is not a matter of birthplace or creed or line of descent.

Theodore Roosevelt, 19th/20th-century American adventurer and politician, Nobel Prize-winning U.S. president

Just Autumn and Monica with me today, The Boy is here too but he lives like a troll in the basement, he only comes up to terrorize passers by.

It is very difficult to accomplish anything when everything is secondary to Autumn's wellbeing, she is really no trouble at all except that she requires, pretty much constant, vigilance. I did get to see the Wisconsin - Illini game... Wisconsin got beat, first defeat in 14 consecutive games.

Got the Seahawks tomorrow at 10:00 in the morning and the Packers at 1700, Christy should be getting home about the time the Packer game starts... I hope.

Sunday  October 7 , 2007

America believes in education: the average professor earns more money in a year than a professional athlete earns in a whole week.

Evan Esar

Christy got back about 1900... all the teams I rooted for today lost, Packers just seemed to forget how to play football at halftime, it was really sad to watch. Just before half time Favre.

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On the October 5 edition of Fox News' America's Newsroom, former radio host Mark Williams claimed that Sen. Barack Obama (D-IL), "took his flag pin off after 9-11, and he felt, apparently, some sort of an affinity or some sort of a connection, because at that point he felt it OK to come out of the closet as the domestic insurgent he is."

David Corn, Washington editor of The Nation magazine, appearing along with Williams, noted that Obama recently said that he decided not to wear the pin "shortly after 9-11," not because of 9-11, as Williams suggested. When Corn said that Obama chose to take the pin off "because he didn't like the run-up to the [Iraq] war, and he decided that you show your patriotism by your ideals, not by what you wear on your lapel," Williams asked, "What has Obama done to demonstrate the patriotism that he says doesn't belong on his lapel? What's he done to demonstrate that, except get out there, badmouth this country, and help demoralize the troops, and help do his part to undermine this nation?"

Williams went on to suggest that Obama might "like a cloth flag and a match," and called the "Democrat [sic] Party" the "domestic enemy."

From the October 5 edition of Fox News' America's Newsroom:

BILL HEMMER (co-host): All right, Barack Obama wants to be president, right? This week he was asked why he no longer wears an American flag lapel pin on his suit. Instead the Illinois senator saying that he wants to show Americans his beliefs are a testament to his patriotism. How's this going to impact his campaign? Let's debate that now with radio talk show host Mark Williams and the Washington editor for The Nation, David Corn. Gentlemen, welcome to both of you here.

WILLIAMS: Thank you.

CORN: Good to be here.

HEMMER: David, you first, now how does this decision win votes? That's the name of the game, right?

CORN: Uh, excuse me. Last night, on this very network, there was an interview with Fred Thompson. Guess what he had on his lapel? No flag pin. I went on to the websites this morning of John McCain and Mitt Romney. Found lots of pictures of them, no flag pin, flag pin. I looked at Congressional Quarterly this morning, and I did see a picture of Larry Craig, the disgraced senator who's not giving up his seat. There was a flag pin.

HEMMER: I don't, OK.

CORN: This is a big nothing. Unless you want to talk about everybody else who's wearing and not wearing a flag pin, I don't see how this makes a difference in the race.

HEMMER: I want to bring in Mark in a moment. Have these guys been asked about it yet? I don't think they have. I think it's Obama that's on record as addressing this. Mark, what do you make of this? How does it win votes? That is the name of the game.

WILLIAMS: It uh, well first of all, Obama's very different than those other names, in that Obama says he took his flag pin off after 9-11, and he felt, apparently, some sort of an affinity or some sort of a connection, because at that point he felt it OK to come out of the closet as the domestic insurgent he is.

CORN: Oh, you know --

WILLIAMS: The Democrat [sic] Party is coming out of the closet as the domestic insurgency and the domestic enemy. We've got John "Skippy" Edwards, who wants us all to march off to the doctor for mandatory physicals. Hillary Clinton, who wants us to be denied the right to work for a living unless we live a politically correct prescribed lifestyle for our universal health insurance. Obama, who says 9-11 is his cue to take off the American flag --

CORN: Mark, Mark --

WILLIAMS: And then now David Corn equating an American flag with a pervert in a toilet.

CORN: That's wrong, Mark. You have your facts wrong.

HEMMER: He's calling him a "domestic insurgent," David?

CORN: Hey, hey, Bill, Bill, let me make a suggestion here. If you want to have an intelligent debate, you should have someone who knows the facts. What Obama says is that he wore a flag pin after 9-11. That's not that 9-11 caused him to take it off. And that after --

WILLIAMS: Took it off after 9-11.

CORN: No, no. And then he took it off sometime after 9-11 --

WILLIAMS: As a - as a good ally --

[crosstalk]

HEMMER: Hang on.

CORN: Let me finish.

[crosstalk]

CORN: He took it off because he didn't like the run-up to the war, and he decided that you show your patriotism by your ideals, not by what you wear on your lapel. So you have it wrong, Mark. Mark, you owe him an apology.

HEMMER: David, you've made your point. Mark, is that the case? Is that a fact?

CORN: You owe him an apology, Mark.

HEMMER: Hang on, David. Mark, go ahead.

WILLIAMS: He took it off after 9/11. He said that he felt that the flag was becoming something -- it was becoming too noticeable, too high profile. He thought that people were wearing it in place of showing their patriotism. I mean, come on, what has Obama done to demonstrate the patriotism that he says doesn't belong on his lapel? What's he done to demonstrate that, except get out there, badmouth this country, and help demoralize the troops, and help do his part to undermine this nation?

CORN: You know, there are plenty of generals who don't support this war who have spoken out against it. I guess they're all unpatriotic in your view too. More Americans than not say the war was a mistake. Are they unpatriotic as well, Mark? You're putting yourself into a very small corner.

WILLIAMS: Are they throwing their flags into the gutter?

CORN: No one's throwing their flags into the gutter.

WILLIAMS: Maybe Obama would like a cloth flag and a match.

CORN: You know, you really should stick to some facts. I know on radio talk, rhetoric is what counts the most, but you're misstating the facts, and now you're branding everybody who's against the war as being unpatriotic? Some people would say that that's unpatriotic.

WILLIAMS: I'm talking about Obama --

HEMMER: Mark, you get the last word. Fire away.

WILLIAMS: I'm talking about Obama and the domestic enemies in the Democrat Party --

CORN: Oh, this is absurd.

WILLIAMS: -- who stand for everything this country was founded to oppose.

HEMMER: You guys are hot.

CORN: Well, I'm right and he's wrong.

HEMMER: David, thank you. Mark, thanks to you as well.

WILLIAMS: Thanks.

HEMMER: Something tells me that this isn't the last of this debate. See you guys.

 

The Coming 'Stab in the Back' Campaign

Having exposed their country to the ignominy of certain defeat in Iraq, the Bush Administration and its neoconservative allies are seeking to salvage their crumbling reputations by blaming their critics for the catastrophe their policies have wrought. We are witnessing the foundation for a post-Iraq "stab in the back" campaign.
The tactic--Dolchstoßlegende, which means, literally, "dagger stab legend"--is associated with attacks by German anti-Semites on Jews in the aftermath of World War I and is a familiar response for frustrated American right-wingers when reality fails to live up to their ideological fantasies. Following the inevitable collapse of nationalist China, unhinged accusations of a liberal conspiracy inside the US government that purposely "lost" China to the Commies ruled the foreign policy debate.

 Consider these words from GOP Senator William Jenner of Indiana:


"This country today is in the hands of a secret inner coterie which is directed by agents of the Soviet Union.... [A] secret invisible government...[has] led our country down the road to destruction." The China lobby--the AIPAC of its day--tirelessly policed American politics to insure that no one with national aspiration dared recognize the reality of the Communist Chinese victory.

During Vietnam, Ronald Reagan tried to blame protesters for killing troops, charging, "Some American will die tonight because of the activity in our streets." The right created the myth of antiwar protesters spitting on soldiers, although a detailed study by Jerry Lembcke, in his The Spitting Image: Myth, Memory and the Legacy of Vietnam, found not a single verifiable incident of such behavior. And while it is a given among conservatives--and even reporters--that critical media coverage somehow hampered the war effort, Daniel Hallin's The Uncensored War notes that most reports, particularly on television, rarely deviated from patriotic, pro-American assumptions. Indeed, the Army's official history of the media's role in the conflict, published by the Army Center of Military History, explicitly rejects this line. None of this prevented Norman Podhoretz from reviving the charge in 1982 with a thinly researched book-length essay called Why We Were in Vietnam. Fortunately, the country was not in the mood; the vast majority of Americans surveyed over the past thirty years have said US involvement was a mistake from the start. (Nowhere in his book did Podhoretz admit that one of those leftists calling explicitly for a US defeat was the then-editor of Commentary--a fellow by the name of "Norman Podhoretz." He argued in 1971 that a Vietcong victory was preferable to "the indefinite and unlimited bombardment by American pilots in American planes of every country in that already devastated region.")

The coming campaign's foundations are already in place. They rest on three building blocks: an attack on the loyalty of those willing to recognize reality; the construction of an alternative reality in which victory is deemed to be imminent; and, finally, a shifting of blame for a supposedly premature withdrawal to those who refuse to play along.

Matthew Yglesias, in the Center for American Progress's "Think Again" column, noticed preparations for such a campaign as early as May 2004. Roll Call's Morton Kondracke pretended that "the media and politicians" were "in danger of talking the United States into defeat in Iraq," while Tony Blankley of the Washington Times added, "the president's political and media opposition want the president's defeat more than America's victory." Two years later, when most Americans had turned against the war, Spencer Ackerman, writing in The New Republic, noticed that not a single contributor to a National Review symposium advocated withdrawal. Typical were comments like those of former Bush Pentagon analyst Michael Rubin, who announced, "The US is losing in Iraq because American politicians and the general public have not decided they want or need to win."

George W. Bush has both feet firmly planted in the "stab" camp, and offered it aid and comfort when he tried to link the "unmistakable legacy of Vietnam"--"boat people," "re-education camps" and "killing fields"--to calls for withdrawal from Iraq. Podhoretz's recent entry into the sweepstakes is, appropriately, a retread of his 1982 attack on his ex-friends and former self. In his clinically delusional book World War IV, Podhoretz paints Bush as a "great president" and professes to see in Iraq "enormous strides that had been made in democratizing and unifying the country under a workable federal system." No less implausibly, he compares war opponents, like former National Security Advisers Zbigniew Brzezinski and Brent Scowcroft, to a "domestic insurgency" with a "life-and-death stake" in America's defeat. Podhoretz flatters himself and his fellow armchair generals with his claim that his screeds in Commentary and the Wall Street Journal editorial pages represent a "war of ideas...no less bloody than the one being fought by our troops in the Middle East."

Podhoretz's paranoid ravings notwithstanding, it is likely that he has been less effective in laying the groundwork for the post-Iraq stab campaign than second-generation neocon generalissimo William Kristol, who despite mountains of contrary evidence professes to detect an "astoundingly" successful surge and a military situation that is "better than anyone expected." Kristol's Weekly Standard recently ran a cover drawing of an American soldier viewed from behind within the sights of an unseen weapon, beneath the headline Does Washington Have His Back? Another Standard headline reads: They Don't Really Support the Troops.

Such visual, visceral propaganda attacks would have fit in perfectly with those employed against Jews by right-wing anti-Semites in the days before Hitler. One might have imagined that American neocons would have pulled back before crossing that line.

The campaign is coming; forewarned is forearmed.

10/2/2007

"The Boy" is not living up to my expectations and I know, that's my problem, not his. I have lowered my expectations to the point where all he has to do is show up for school, go to bed before 0200 and not call Christy & me names in our presence. When you are dealing with someone who doesn't give a popcorn fart about you or your opinion, and he knows you won't physically abuse him then nothing you do will have any impression on him. We have apparently taught "The Boy" only one thing in the past 17 years and that is; If I throw a tantrum like a 5 year old, people will let me do whatever I want to do, they will even buy me stuff just to get me to shut up and leave them alone. I thought he would eventually learn that the world may appease him for a little while but eventually they will tire of his manipulating and shut him out... but he didn't.

I had a long talk with Christy and we agree that he really is incapable of seeing even 10 minutes into the future. He doesn't comprehend the meaning of consequences because he has never excepted the consequences he has had as having any relationship to his wellbeing. He has always been like that but it's never really mattered before. I am very concerned. I can't talk to him on any level, he gets pissed off, calls me an asshole under his breath and leaves the house or goes into his room. Christy can get thru to him sometimes but it wears off quickly, he seems to become immune to reason after a day... or less. He goes back to the self gratifying, self destructive ways. Most frustrating kid I have ever known, it would be easier to deal with if I didn't care about him so much, he is funny, articulate and bright, really a lot of fun to be around when there are no conflicts. Christy said this morning that he probably needs a psychiatrist. Of course he does but he has had a psychiatrist and he wouldn't participate then and he won't buy in now. The doc would talk to us and try to diagnose his problem and he did conclude rather early on that "The Boy" has severe ADHD and he prescribed medication but if "The Boy" won't take his medication there is nothing we can do about it.

It's a quandary...

One of the problems is that "The Boy" is tied into an online game, I have talked about it before. The characters  in the game are called "Avatars", they look like Saturday morning cartoon images. They are created by the players and they are extensions of the egos and personalities of the players. People, not just kids, grown-ups get caught up in it too, are seduced by the idea that they can place their avatars' in any situation, they can do anything they want to do, there is no one to stop them, no one to rebuke them. They can lie, steal, rape and kill. The worst thing that can happen to an avatar is that it gets killed by another avatar but with a click of the button and a code word they are back in the game as though nothing has happened. People are apparently seduced by the power, wealth and prestige they get/earn when they are online. The weaker and more immature the player is in real life the more gratification he gets when he is online. It's sad and a little pathetic but you can't convince the players... and there are millions of them... that there might be something wrong with the fact that they can't stop playing... the fantasy world becomes real and the real world becomes an extension of the fantasy, an annoyance, a faint buzzing sound in the back ground.

I will disassemble the PC and take it to the shop if he doesn't get to school by 1100... per Christy.

10/3/2007

Micki manages the Mini Mart, she works most weekday mornings, she is who she is... nothing anyone believes or says about her will change that,  but she and everyone who knows she exists,  believes something about her different than anyone else.  Customers, depending on their needs, have only a fleeting impression of her, if any at all. If she just takes their money they won't even remember what she looks like, if they need directions and she can help them, then she is knowledgeable, if she is unable to help or wrong then she is fallible. Everyone that meets her carries away a different impression, every time you meet her you add to your knowledge base, she is a friend, a sister, a daughter, a mother, a lover, a confidant. I am sure that depending on who you ask, at some point in her interaction with the world she has been deemed to be virtually everything from rude, pleasant, impatient, understanding, angry, loving... the whole gamut. Most people reading this did not even know she existed but now you do, you may never meet her but you know she exists because I told you she did... unless I made her up, it is entirely possible that I did just make her up simply to make some vague point about knowledge, faith, belief and religion. People who have been to the Mini-Mart know...

Religion relies on your ability to believe what you can not perceive with your five senses, everything you know about any religion is gleaned from cobbling together something someone wrote or something someone said. Your mind can expand on a concept and it will try to find a way to make it fit the belief... we see examples of it every day, if your belief is that Hillary Clinton is evil then you will believe anything you hear, see or read that supports that belief and disregard anything that refutes it. The hard thing to do is to admit that you are capable of deceiving yourself. Just go back and look at the slander-mail you have passed on that turned out to be a hoax or a totally contrived misrepresentation of the truth. I have done it in the past, I learned the hard way to always check out everything. I read because I have been fooled so many times  before.

I sometimes wish I could repress my skeptic intellect and lose myself in some religious ideology,  I am told life would be much simpler, more well defined... but I can't do it. I tried, half heartedly I admit, to get involved but from my perspective the whole scene just reeks of sanctimonious hypocrisy and delusion...  contrived, superficiality and I feel crushed by it, and I can't get past it... The people are very nice, salt of the earth types, I like the social aspect of church but I gag on the doctrine. Best I just do my own thing and try not to get caught up in any conversation that pits my beliefs and opinions against someone else's heartfelt dogma.
 
Religion is a difficult subject, I know everyone has strong beliefs, so do I. I can respect that on one level but I have a hard time. I guess that the reality is that we respect the beliefs of others as much they respect ours. I really get defensive when someone dismisses my 64 years of life, searching for understanding and inner peace. To tell me I am wrong or misguided, haven't studied hard enough, haven't trusted, haven't had faith, or I haven't seen the light is just insensitive arrogance, it just turns me off cold... and it pisses me off.

I have reached a place where I am comfortable with my conclusions. It really is easier for me to believe in random chaos than to accept that all this trauma and pain is a part of some grand plan. If it is all just natural phenomena then we can just forget all the agonizing and deal with it. We can treat the pain, find some way to deal with the chaos enjoy the peace, laugh at the irony and silliness of it all. One reality everyone accepts, we are on a doomed planet in a chaotic constantly changing universe we know virtually nothing about. As the Republicans say, that's the truth, deal with it.