March 2003, Week 4
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March 2003, Week 4
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Monday March 17 , 2003 The first rule of holes: when you're in one, stop digging. --Molly Ivins Christy had a meeting at the college today from 1130 till 1500. I forgot Autumn's medicine again... damn. I ordered a Minolta 7i camera off the net today, I am anxious to get my hands on it. The Cowboy Poetry and Music Festival is in two weeks and I want to get some good pictures... If you click on the picture of the camera it will take you to it's description on the Minolta site. It was cold today so I didn't get to go out and ride, and besides, the school called and told me to come get Monica because she was having an asthma attack... she seemed fine to me so we went to lunch. Mike came home with 'tude' I have no idea why he was upset, and he won't talk to me. Cindy smelled 'fire' so I got up and I smelled it too. I smelled sulphur so I asked Mike if he lit a match. Mike said "No", I said, ""B" did you light a match." "B" said "No". I was about to walk out of their room and I saw a candle burning on the top shelf of their closet. I said "Why Mike" and Mike said "Why can't you trust me, you see! That's why I don't like to be around you guys... you don't trust me!" The exchange was actually longer than this but that is the gist of it. Sometimes I wonder which planet I'm on... He has been coming home stressed every day and I don't know why, he won't tell me. He is 'mainstreamed' for PE at the end of the day, I think something is going on there that he can't handle. How will he be able to survive in a world where he has to control his temper. Tuesday March 18 , 2003 Delay is preferable to error. JEFFERSON, THOMAS (1743-1826, U.S. President, 1801-1809.) {Letter to George Washington, May 16, 1792} I am going to put politics on the back burner today... I am starting to get so angry everything else is getting shoved aside. I killed time till about 1030 and drove down to get my crown put on... not fun but not nearly as traumatic as last time... My mouth was numb till about 1400. Gary Dodd came over and graded my driveway... I gave him $40.00 I have no idea whether that was enough, it would have been more than enough for me... I graded driveways up here for years and no one gave me a dime. Gary did a pretty good job and worked about an hour and a half... maybe two. I got an e-mail from the folks I ordered the camera from (is that right? "from the folks I ordered the camera from" sounds funny) anyway, it scared me, like there was no camera in stock or the Credit Card was no good or... I don't know... I called the 800 number and sat on hold for about 5 minutes only to be told there is no problem it's just their policy to verify every order over $500... damn... now I have to wait till Thursday. Christy saw Dr. Teget, he's taken her off the Beta Blocker but is keeping her on the Coumadin, he said if she has another 'episode' then she needs to go back in... 19:30, my tooth hurts... I took a Motrin... hope this is not a harbinger of things to come. Wednesday March 19 , 2003 Child bullies are the rectal acorns from which the assholes of society grow. umberto Well, today hasn't been exactly swell so far, I was looking forward to taking the bike for a spin and went out to clean it off, as I was cleaning it I spotted where something had hit the faring and cut a 2 inch gash in it, the whole damaged area is about the size of the palm of your hand I tightened up some screws holding it together and decided to see what it would cost to get the faring fixed... I finally found a body shop in Lancaster and the fella that owned the place came out and looked at it, asked me if I would take the faring off he went to his computer and poked at it for about a rough estimate was $400... damn. As I was taking off I decided to let it rev up a little and it cut out... I did it again and it did the same thing... not timing or or fuel, it's electrical. I took it back to the place I bought it and the mechanic rode it. Says it has an electronic Rev Limiter and it's probably screwed up. When he came back he said, "That's scary isn't it"... I said "Yup", I talked to the owner and find out that the bike isn't a trade in and it wasn't tested out, it was on consignment so I took it home, I met Christy and she followed me back to the Cycle Rider and I dropped it off... I won't see it again till next week sometime. I am upset buy the fact that this bike wasn't as it was represented... I don't know what I am going to do about that yet.
Thursday March 20 , 2003 Never bear more than one trouble at a time. Some people bear three kinds - all they have had, all they have now, and all they expect to have. Edward Everett Hale, clergyman and author (1822-1909) 07:00: I forgot about Mikes appointment at Probation... I called for a new appointment, it is apparently not a problem. Christy is teaching in the morning, she has an IEP for some kid in Lancaster at 13:00 and will pick up Calie and Christian at 15:00. and do some shopping for Cindy's Birthday Party. I should get my Minolta today, the way my luck has been going it will be smashed into unrecognizable bits of glass and plastic. Well I was right... something went wrong, the "amount available" on the credit card I used was $54 short of what was needed... so the camera won't be here till Monday. Rats... Mike got home early and took the van down the driveway and hit the post at the end of the driveway when I got home the van was parked back where it usually was and Mike and "B" were down by the post with a shovel pretending they just found it that way. I asked Sandy if she saw the van leave the house... She said "I saw you leave to go get the kids (I took the Taurus so it wasn't me, ) Mike said he didn't take it... "It wasn't me, I swear to God, Dad!" I haven't driven the van since the rain, there are tracks behind the van, the steering column wasn't locked so you could start the van without a key, there are grooves a quarter inch apart imbedded into the post, there are pieces of a that grows by the post on the running board, fresh dirt on the tires, and a dent in the running board... About the time I was figuring all that out I got a call from his therapist at school saying that a report was going to be filed for sexual harassment. Apparently he was making some crude comments about one of the girls in his class and that he fell in with a bunch of kids making disgusting comments about one of the teachers... the girls parents have filed an official complaint, it will go to his P. O.. Mike has absolutely zero impulse control and he has a whole bunch of stupid impulses... Friday March 21 , 2003 When teenagers are free to do as they choose, they usually imitate each other. I waited around for my camera to arrive, I started tracking it on the FedEx site and watched it get all the way into Acton but:
What seems to have happened is that it made it all the way from Brooklyn to Lancaster and actually put on a truck and was driven to Acton, but the delivery date was for the 24th, even though I paid $54 for two day delivery... AARRRGGGGG I will drive up to Lancaster to pick it up tomorrow. Mike to Mark I took everyone but Autumn and Mike to see Cody Barnes, Secret Agent, it was cute enough to endure but the plot was so outrageous it was difficult to stay interested... the kids liked it. Saturday March 22 , 2003 Do you realize how many holes there could be if people would just take the time to take the dirt out of them? Well, that put things in perspective for me... I wonder who said that first... sounds a bit Carlin-esque or maybe Emo or Wright... I got the house cleaned, drove to Lancaster to pick up my new camers... finally. I drove over the check on the status of my bike, maybe Tuesday. I got home in time to watch the races. Pretty good... Christy took Christian to Shon's. Sunday March 23 , 2003 Ideas are much like children - your own are wonderful. I took Mike to Community Service and bought the kids donuts. I wanted to take everyone out to the Poppy Preserve and do some camera practice before next weekend's affair at the Cowboy Poetry and Music Festival... but... "B" freaked out... he attacked Monica, hit her in the stomach so hare she couldn't breathe. Christy tried to intervene, when he wouldn't let go, she tried to swat him in the butt and he turned around and slapped at her but she blocked it with her arm then "B" pushed her I took "B" to his room and tried to put him into his bed he resisted and his head hit the side of the bunk he started screaming at me, claimed I hit him I tried to talk to him but he just started screaming at me about how I hate him I don't love him, he hates this fucking family, he wants to leave and be on his own (He's thirteen, can't boil water), I started to get mad and yelled at him Christy intervened and told me to leave him to her, I was out of the room for about a minute and "B" punched her in the face hard. Christy is pretty devastated ... I went back in and held him for a while, I was close to decking him... but I didn't... sort of wished I had. He has it worked up in his head that we are responsible for all of his problems. He is so convinced that he won't hear anything unless it supports that concept. We are why he has no friends, we are why he isn't in school with his friends, we are the reason he is unhappy. For all I know he holds us responsible for his physical disabilities, if only we had not taken him in as a Foster Child he would be with someone who really loved him. I think that he believes we are supposed to love and support him regardless of anything he does, he can tell us to to get fucked, flip us off behind our backs, sit on his butt and watch TV all day, sleep in class, disrespect the teachers, he can hurt the girls, he can lie and cheat and steal and we are supposed to just roll over... smile and tell him how much we love and support him. How do I convince him that that's not how it works...
Monday March 17 , 2003 I listened to George's "Speech", I'm sorry, I believe this is a huge mistake... attacking Iraq is S T U P I D. Killing people who are not a threat to us is unforgivable... horrible... how many people are going to die to satisfy George's lust for war? Chemical and Biological Weapons my ass. No proof has been found that these weapons still exist, we know they did exist because we gave them to him. I need to stop thinking about Bush, he is spoiled too many of my days. Orange Alert, duct tape and plastic sheeting... if the terrorists come, Bush brought them... thanks George... could this all be a re-election ploy? I can't figure it out, hour after hour of his relentless condemnation, "staying on subject" no facts, just allegation after allegation, "My only concern is the safety of the American People." "Chemical and Biological weapons" (Note that Atomic weapons have been quietly dropped) "Weapons of Mass Destruction" Damn it... where is the truth!!! How the hell do you know who is lying, is the whole world wrong and Bush right? In my soul I believe that Bush is lying, but so are so many others. I haven't liked Bush since his remarks after the Columbine Massacre he had to make a religious/political statement "...proof that there is a wave of Evil spreading across the country.". I also didn't like that he took credit for the groundwork Ann Richards laid in education. I can't in good conscience shine the weasel on... wish I could... but he's preparing to kill people now and I just can't let that go. Innocent Iraqis are going to die, the ranks of anti-American terrorists are going to swell, American soldiers are going to be put in harms way, for OIL. It's not about terrorism, there have been no terrorists from Iraq, it's not about human rights or else we would have been in Afghanistan before 2001, Why weren't we in the Congo, Sudan, Bosnia before 2001. It's the oil, we have the right of way through Afghanistan now and we'll soon control Iraq and have a strangle hold on the rest of the middle east. 20 years ago we couldn't have done this because the USSR would have gone ape-shit but now that we are the only Super Power we can do any damn thing we want to do. Crush the UN, flip off the Security Council... they either vote the way we want them to vote or we'll make them irrelevant. Democracy my aching butt... we are a dictatorship... we are dictating to the whole world, "We Be Bad", we are the 400 pound gorilla, we don't care, we don't have to, we're the United God Damn States of America, the world is afraid of us now and for good reason, we are running amok. Try to speak out against Bush, offer a dissenting opinion, just try it the Rabid Republican Right will beat you into the ground. The French, Germans, Russians, Chinese and damn near everyone else in the world says we are making a big mistake but George has GAWD on his side. Defy the United States and die. The Bible says your leaders are the Sword of God... George is anointed by God to touch of Armageddon Saddam Hussein, with no Navy, No Air force, and ill equipped and demoralized Army is as big a threat as Guatemala ... this is insane! From: THE UNLOVED AMERICAN by SIMON SCHAMA ....Virtuous isolation, of course, wasn’t a problem so long as the United States saw the exercise of its power primarily in terms of the defensive policing of its own continental space. But now that policing has gone irreversibly global, the imperious insistence on the American way, or else, has only a limited usefulness in a long-term pacification strategy. Like it or not, help will be needed, given America’s notoriously short attention span, intolerance of casualties, and grievously wounded prosperity. Serving the United Nations with notice of redundancy should its policies not replicate those of the United States and the United Kingdom might turn out to be shortsighted, since in Europe, even in countries whose governments have aligned themselves with America, there is almost no support for a war without U.N. sanction. Perhaps Mrs. Trollope put it best after all: “If the citizens of the United States were indeed the devoted patriots they call themselves, they would surely not thus encrust themselves in the hard, dry, stubborn persuasion, that they are the first and best of the human race, that nothing is to be learnt, but what they are able to teach, and that nothing is worth having, which they do not possess.” Wednesday March 19 , 2003 19:00 PST Bush's War has started... it makes me sad... and angry. I will pray for our soldiers and the innocents on both sides and damn the sons of bitches that sent them into harms way with every fiber of my being. Friday March 21 , 2003
http://www.house.gov/appropriations_democrats/caughtonfilm.htm http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&u=/ap/20030318/ap_on_go_co/chemical_security&e=2 http://www.commondreams.org/headlines03/0315-04.htm http://www.vaiw.org/vet/modules.php?op=modload&name=News&file=article&sid=59 http://www.bayarea.com/mld/mercurynews/living/education/5390482.htm http://www.nytimes.com/2002/12/20/business/20WORL.html http://www.cnn.com/2003/WORLD/meast/03/16/rafah.death/index.html http://www.allyourtv.com/0203season/news/02252003donahue.html Check out the real news... Bush has effectively ended any hope seeing Nuclear Disarmament, as a matter of fact I see it escalating beyond. Control, the only thing America respects in "The Bomb". We are attacking Iraq because we know it doesn't have it but we are tip toeing around Korea because it does... I would think that if I were a the ruler of a Middle Eastern Country I would be scrambling like crazy to get my hands on THE BOMB and setting up coalitions with anyone who will talk to me. I am very afraid for the world. Saturday March 22 , 2003 Seems to be a lot of emphasis on preserving the oil wells "for the Iraqi people"... no mention of any other aspect of the country's resources. 2 soldiers killed by Iraqi enemy fire, 16 have been killed by Christy is reading a book about all the crap that's going on, how Bechtel had bought the water in Bolivia... they are selling the water back to the Bolivians for roughly 20% of their monthly income, the money goes into Bechtel's pockets. Bechtel bought the rights to the water because they are going to build a dam... but they have no intention of ever building a dam... they spent $20k for the rights to the water and have collected millions. She also read about the World Bank loaning money to Argentina they got their money but the Bank is charging 16% interest, | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||
